…for the righteous God tries the hearts and reins.
I am broken.
That’s how I’ve often felt.
And if I’m broken, what possibly could be my purpose?
There is no need for someone who is broken.
That is what I believed until someone made a comment that has changed how I will forever feel about being “broken.”
“Being broken,” she said, “has such a negative connotation to it. But I think of it like this: a horse must be broken in so that the rider can control the horse by simply pulling on the reins. That’s how I feel about being broken. I have experienced trials and made countless mistakes, only to repent and learn from them, in essence, to be broken in. And in the end, I found that while yes, I may feel broken, God now has influence over my heart.”
When she finished speaking I could feel tears running down my cheeks.
How wonderful it is that because of everything I’ve ever had to face, God now, by a simple pull on the reins of my heart, can guide me along the path.
I used to think broken meant being weak
that I had failed
that I had no significant purpose
or that I was of little use
But now I understand that it means so much more.
It means being humble
Eager to become better
And stronger than I was before.
I know that it means God is in charge, and there is no one I would trust more to guide me, change my direction if needed, or hold the reins to my heart.
Insight and Inspiration
Examine me, O Lord, and prove me; try my reins and my heart.
But thou, O Lord, knows me: thou hast seen me, and tried mine heart toward thee…
Today, here is my hope for each of us:
remember every hard time,
remember your past mistakes,
and then, allow your broken heart to lead you to a better life.