I get married in 17 days.
I’ve had a countdown in my phone since 180 days away from my wedding.
And now, it’s right around the corner.
In 17 days I’m going to be married,
I’m going to start my forever with my best friend.
But there are still moments I feel inadequate,
Convincing myself that I don’t deserve this.
I don’t deserve to be this overwhelmingly, crazily, and perfectly happy.
And I was expressing these concerns to someone very dear to me when they stopped me short and said, “Sam, stop. You don’t have to be perfect to be happy. Forget about the past, forget about all the mistakes you’ve made. You deserve this. Be happy. Have a fresh start. Start here.”
And so I’m doing just that.
I’m going to start here.
I’m going to stop living in the past.
I’ll forget the mistakes I’ve made,
But remember the lessons they taught me.
I’m going to forgive myself for what I’ve done,
And make goals to become better in the future.
I’m about to turn the page and begin a whole new adventure in my life,
And I owe it to myself to let myself be happy.
And you do too.
So often we as humans convince ourselves we don’t deserve all that we have,
And essentially, we become the roadblock to our own happiness.
So forget what you’ve done.
Fix what you can, and move on.
You deserve to be bubbling over with uncontainable happiness, so let yourself.
Get out of your own way.
Enjoy all the happiness you have.
Know that you deserve it.
Editor’s Note: Best wishes and all the joy in the world to Sam and her husband. They were married this week, and we couldn’t be more thrilled for the two of them.