The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give
you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom.
Some of us were born into battle. Others have shown up on the front lines in other seasons of life. No matter how you arrived, like me, it’s often hard to believe God’s truths when they’ve always been disguised as the enemy’s lies.
I recently took a trip back to my small hometown. Returning is always a test to what I have truly overcome & what still haunts. As soon as the wheels roll over the county line, my mind starts to remember. That recollection usually isn’t tied to the fanfare of a welcome home party of the great memories- it’s a gathering of forgiveness.
This town raised me; this town traumatized me. When I pack my suitcases to return, I make sure not to leave out any of my good shoes or who I am today. Both allow me to walk upright in strength & confidence down streets that are just as unfamiliar, as they are untouched by time.
A lot happened to me there & I often wish I had a dollar for every, “I forgive you” that I’ve doled out. Forgiveness that had to be pried from my hands due to an apology that lacked falling from the oppressors mouths.
My children were born into their own combative fights. My son’s are more personal; my daughter’s are medical. I realized many years ago that I had to warrior through my own life so they never had to face theirs alone. To be able to provide them with the type of example & mothering that I desperately craved throughout my life, has been one of my greatest joys.
My journey of survival has provided them & others I’ve known over the years, with a person who can be empathetic to their experiences. God has been so gracious to allow my shame & hurt to never lay desolate. Every occurrence that brought a piece of me into darkness, He walked out into the sunshine the moment I told my stories & heard others say, “Me too.”
I honestly feel that God sends Himself through others. If we are busy isolating ourselves, locking the doors & never pulling back the blinds, we’ll miss His messengers. There has to be a place where we make the decision to claim that fear is THE ultimate liar & we won’t buy what he’s selling another day.
I want to tell you today that beauty does rise from the ash. That Jesus really did provide freedom, for nothing more than to set you free. And without a doubt His promises are true & they are real. His plans to place you at the head & not the tail, the top & not the bottom, are authentic & these words should be ingested into your soul.
I want to take a moment & talk directly to YOU: empty nest you, child with medical needs you, child with special needs you, divorced you, chemical brain imbalance you, single parent you, abused for years you, substance abusing you, distorted body image you, cheated on you, depressed you, promiscuous you, shame filled, overwhelmed & lacking faith you, miscarriage & tubal pregnancy you, sabotager of your own joy you, & MANY more of you….. I understand. You see, this is just a part of my life list & I want you to know, it isn’t just you.
Maybe you identify with a few of those titles or maybe like me, you’ve lived & are living through them all. Whatever your name tag says, I want you to know you’ve never worn those labels alone. I pray today that you will allow God to peel off the layers of lies & replace them with those of truth.
We all belong to one another because we belong to Him. You are not alone. You are seen. You are worthy. You are loved.
Insight & Inspiration:
Psalm 71:5-8, NLT, “O Lord, you alone are my hope. I’ve trusted you, O Lord, from childhood. Yes, you have been with me from birth; from my mother’s womb you have cared for me. No wonder I am always praising you! My life is an example to many, because you have been my strength and protection. That is why I can never stop praising you; I declare your glory all day long.”
Nehemiah 4:14, NLT, “Don’t be afraid of the enemy! Remember the Lord, who is great and glorious, and fight for your brothers, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your homes!”
Are there areas in your life you need healing & restoration? Where do you need to unpack your past & leave it with God? Who do you need to forgive, even if they aren’t sorry? Have you forgiven you?