We just got back from Disney World. Hot, humid days full of walking and waiting. Thrills, jumps, swoops, and screams. And unexpectedly, time to ponder. At the end of each day, my family would practically fall into their beds. Well, everyone except for the baby, who had been pushed in the stroller all day long! We fell into the routine of taking a bath, getting her blankie, and quietly slipping out onto the balcony to sit and enjoy the night-time breeze.
One evening as we sat and relished the warm soft air, I began to think. What am I doing here? What is the point of my life? Too seek the next thrill? What is the point of being here? Why was it so important for us to have an earthly experience? And I sat for a while longer. Soon the nightly Disney fireworks show began out in the distance. I stood up holding the baby to get a glimpse around the trees, and the breeze caught my hair. It felt so nice and I felt so calm and centered. And I felt a heavenly whisper. You are here to experience this. To feel this wind and the press of a baby in your arms. To see breathtaking sights and hear booming sounds. You are here to gain experience and all things will work together for your good. I stayed still for a few moments even after the fireworks ended and just let it all sink in.
The next night I was out on the balcony again, pondering again. My soul was hungry and peaceful at the same time. I felt especially close to my beautiful daughter as we cuddled. I watched her eyes grow heavy and finally close as she drifted off to dreamland. I reflected on some funny times we had during the day. My son had lost a water bottle cap over a railing. He ran, through pouring rain, found the cap in a bush, and sprinted up the stairs to make our turn on the train. We all cheered and traded high fives. As my baby and I sat together, I felt God whisper to me again. You are here to feel and to give love.
Our time there was a whirlwind during the day, and a calm breeze at night. “The Lord was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake. And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.” (1 Kings 19:11-12)
When do you hear the still small voice?