Ahhhh, alone in the car.
As a mom, it’s a rare treat.
I had just finished singing at a church program and was getting ready to head home to my family. Here I was, in my car, all by myself! No one was asking me for anything, and I could choose any radio station I wanted. I could sing as loud as I wanted. I could crank up the heater and really enjoy the ride home.
I turned the ignition switch jumped in my seat a little when the music came blaring on. It was a bit of a contrast to the peaceful music I had just been singing in praise. As I clicked in my seatbelt, I contemplated which songs I would listen to. I shifted into drive and slowly pulled out of the parking lot. My hand went towards the radio dial.
I hesitated a second… and then turned it off. A gentle heavenly nudge to be still.
The silence was a little suffocating at first. My thoughts started to explode in my mind like a ping pong ball stuck in a box. But gradually my mind quieted. I began to notice the beautiful lights in the night sky. The repetitive white lines of the road calmed me. I thought of songs I could write. My heart filled with gratitude to God for this beautiful earth, for my supportive family, for my voice I can use to sing, and for this precious time I had to ponder and pray and meditate. I arrived home centered and refreshed and energized.
It is still a night I remember to this day. It was so simple. But it felt like a little leap of faith. I thought, “if I don’t fill this silence, then what on earth will? I will be bored, I will be restless.”
But God filled the silence.
It was such a small and simple thing that was a blessing to me that night. A reminder once again that I can trust God with big and small things in my life.
When do you find time to meditate and ponder? Are you comfortable with the quiet? Can you trust God to fill your silence?