A few nights ago as I laid in bed waiting to fall asleep, my mind was filled with thoughts and a desire to be better.
I wanted to be kinder.
To be more loving.
To serve more.
To just be better.
I feel asleep and the next morning my mind was occupied by the same thoughts. “I wish I was better.”
For days I kept thinking this without doing much about it.
After a few days I expressed these thoughts with someone I love very much.
I’ll admit, I was hoping that they would reassure me and tell me that I’m already so good, so kind, so loving. But in response they gently said to me, “Then what are you doing to be better?”
Immediately my mind began to frantically search for what I am actively doing to become better and nothing came to me.
Here I was, saying over and over again how I want to be better, yet doing nothing about it.
So I decided right then and there that I would change that.
Now everyday I ask myself a simple question that can help me determine if I am working to be any better.
This simple question has taught me to continually think throughout each day what I can do to be a better person.
Have I been kind?
Have I been patient?
Have I been honest?
Have I apologized to whomever I have wronged?
Have I smiled at someone?
Have I gone out of my way to help someone out?
Have I taken the time to let someone know that I love them?
I ask myself this question every day, every hour. And the results have been phenomenal.
I find myself constantly looking outside myself and seeking out opportunities to help and to serve.
I want to become a better person.